User blog:Snicklefritzer/Guilt is my Disease



Ever feel guilty for no reason? Ever feel like it was you?

Yes. It haunts me, and I'm afraid I'll loose them. I'm afraid no matter how many times I say I'm truly sorry, the'll refuse to accept the apology. I'm afraid they hate me, and dont want to talk to me ever again.

I've had personal experience that has made the the "worried" person I am. I'm not going into detail, but I said two simple words thats caused almost 2 and a half years of friendship drama and hate. "Yeah right." I was stupid, and dumb. I reply the scene in my head and just want to bawl my eyes out, because two words really can break you or someone else. It haunts me.

Ever since I had that happened, I'm afraid to speak. I'm afraid I'll upset someone and start drama. '''Just like I did 3 uears ago. It lasted the rest of my elementary years.''' I panic when I try to comfort or support someone, because I think, "Did I say the wrong thing?" Did I give them the wrong idea?" It scares me to the point of throwing up.

'I feel guilty to everything I do and stay. I don't know if I can be cured...'