Thread:Aztelle/@comment-29271015-20170101055807

You're the third and final person to be receiving a message tonight, and I hope you enjoy reading all of this ... (Dear god don't hate me)

We've definately had a few bumps in our friendship this year, but now we're closer (and gayer) than ever together! I always enjoy waking up and checking my phone to see that my "LesbianLover" has Snapchatted me or messaged me on Kik. Because it's always some cute message with our rainbow hearts and I know it's stupid but those cheesy and cute moments we share are always my favorite. I can't recall a time (since our breakup) that you've ever made me cry, in the bad way. You always make me laugh so hard I start crying, you with your ridiculous typos and your bad puns. I love how you always call me "Gayby" or "Wife", even in the Main Chat! It's like we're an actual married couple, without the constant bickering. I'm smiling a lot right now while typing this message, even though I know you won't get this until tomorrow. You and I are like Alex Vause and Piper Chapman. Prison wives for life, regardless of our rocky relationship. If there was ever a day that I was smiling like an idiot because of you for a good 3 hours, it was the day you told me you were coming to Illinois over the summer, to my town exactly - Summer could not come fast enough, let me just say that. You're a truly beautiful girl, Jen. And just like you keep a collection of me in your phone, I keep a collection of you in my phone. Jen? I love you, I really really do. You make me smile so, so much and you have your own unique way of getting me to laugh for you. And you're one of the people that I am overjoyed to be bringing into 2017 with me, as my devoting and beautiful house wife! I hope your New Year's Eve is/was going amazing! Because you deserve nothing short of the best. If I could be there to celebrate the new year with you, you bet I'd be there by your side the whole time. I don't care what your mother says about you being lesbian, because to me you're absolutely perfect. I'm not going to lie and say I didn't wish I could share my (first) New Year's kiss with you, because I actually had multiple thoughts about that, I'm being flat honest. But you deserve a great 2017, and I want to be there for you throughout the whole year and even more. I do believe that I have a lifelong friend with you, and I hope that you at least feel the same on those grounds. I'd hate to lose you, if I ever lost you I'd be heartbroken for days. But I have you now, and even though we're just best friends, that's way better than nothing. I love you Jen, happy New Year <3

It would be wrong of me to lie and say that I didn't have feelings for you still, because I do ... 