User blog comment:Eyota/51017/@comment-28731102-20170511154318

Sarah.

I know all of this, on a very personal level.

I may not have much to say, because even today with things look up, I am so afraid of it all crashing down on me all over again.

''I understand, all of it. ''I wish I was a better friend to you because I saw your pain and didn't do anything, I'm so sorry Sarah, I am. Words may not be enough, but the tears that are falling down my face I hope would be.

You have a a drunk in your family? I had three. My REAL mother, my father and Danny as well. I have cuts and scars I will never be able to tell anyone IRL, because of what my father did to me.'' Look them in the face and tell them, tell them, scream at them. Or take it to the point to where you are taking it. Ignore them until they see the pain they have caused you. ''

I have social anxiety too, and its so bad that at times before I even walk out of the door I am trembling and shaking. Almost the the point of a really bad mental break down. ''Surround yourself with people you are comfortable with in the outside world. Ask a friend if they can be on speed dial, and that if you feel like you are at your point of no return, call them, text them. Nothing feels for fulfilling than having a friend to lean on and know what you are going through (Like Dani, and Gretchen. They have helped so much.)''

You have school right? Danny and I are both at the education level of six year olds, but you know whats the positive here? ALL of you, even before meeting any of you helped us GET AN EDUCATION. ''You maybe have not helped me much, but with all that you guys as a community have taught me I dont think I would ever be able to thank all of you properly. ''Take what you know and soar Sarah, I know you can do it. This might be repeated over and over by different people. BUT I MEAN IT. WITH ALL OF MY HEART.

I will not let anyone fall because of their issues. I would rather snap my own neck than see you drown. You've always had my loyalty as a friend, and I hope that maybe these ideas might work for you... I love you Sarah, and please DON'T give up! Giving up gets you no where...I know that from experience.