Thread:Usakii/@comment-26854056-20170514200342

I just had a really sad thought about Strelitzia.

So in the last chapter (IfIeverwriteitcoughcoug h) when everyone in the fraction was stating what they were going to do after they were liberated, it sort of mirrored their original goals, right? Nico talked about medicine, Tin about pollution, Collie about leading his country, so on and so forth.

Littz's goal? Litz never wanted to kill another person. “We shall never kill again.” Which got me thinking about her and her life more than I already do.

Her job was being a fraction hitwoman. Killing is sort of Littz’s thing. But if that line fits in with the rest of the lines in that scene, she never wanted to do it again. I already figured that she wouldn’t have exactly liked killing people (She never condoned violence for violence’s sake in the chapters and she killed Penny because if she didn’t, Collie would get murdered, but it never struck me how much she must’ve hated it until now.

Strelitzia Reginae was never really mean, not even to Tin who was the class punching bag. Peko loved animals. Before she died in the chapter, one of the last things she said was that she wanted the killings to stop. And when everyone was talking about their original goals, hers was to do no harm. She had no natural malice. No part of her wanted to kill before Orchid's influence.

And yet she killed, and probably often, because that was what she was ordered to do and she probably would’ve been killed herself if she disobeyed. Every human part of her rebelled against it, and yet she did it. How miserable do you think that must have made her? She probably developed her worldview of being a tool when she was very young, probably right after her first few kills, because how could a child with a kind and innocent nature deal with that? She had to make up a worldview that could let her live with killing or else she probably would’ve killed herself before she even entered middle school.

She just didn’t want to hurt people. Littz just didn’t want to kill again, but Orchid sunk her claws into her and led her to become part of the worst tragedies the world had ever seen.

I think Littz would’ve made a hell of a doctor if life had been a little better to her. Even if the exact phrase doesn’t appear in the Hippocratic Oath, it’s the one thing a doctor can promise: First, do no harm. 