Thread:Poisoned Canine/@comment-32043089-20161106020256

Ok, I know I said that I wouldn't continue to spam your wall, but I really have to say this.

As of tonight {11/5/16} it's been 3 entire weeks that you've been gone. I am absolutely broken, Sean. I miss you more than I have ever before. The past 3 weeks, all I have been talking about is you. Ask anyone, {Gretchen, Jenasis, Oskar, Indiya, Kylie, Dani, ect.)

I am so extremely anxious about this whole thing. I overthink everything, too, so it makes it 12x worse. I think that something has happened to you, and I would have no idea, and that makes me want to cry.

Actually, I have been crying a lot over it haha. I know I sound dramatic, I know, but you have no idea how much you mean to me. I am absolutely petrified of losing you, Sean. I am so scared

I'm sorry for being all grammatically correct in this post, I tend to get like that absentmindedly when I'm upset, and I don't crack jokes like I usually do.

Sean, I miss you dearly. Please, come back as soon as you can, I am desperate to talk to you, desperate to see you laugh at my jokes, my typos, my stories. I need you. You are my entire world and I would give up anything to talk to you, absolutely anything

It breaks my heart to think about you, to hear/read your name, see your profile picture, ect.

I torture myself by going through your message wall, and re-reading our daily messages, and how you call me "baby", "babygirl", "babe", ect. and my stomach instantly becomes a whirlwind of butterflies, and I-

HOYL SHIT THE SONG "LIKE IM GONNA LOSE YOU" JUST CAME ON PANDORA WHILE IM TYPING THIS I WANT TO BENEFH RUGBEHTW IPVYATCSTCEQA

And I blush, and I think about the countless times where I've stayed up until 1:30 in the morning, having to wake up in 3 1/2 hours for school, and then talking to you at 7:15, {My time}, when you get home from school, and then doing that all over again. It's an absolutely amazing time whenever I'm talking to you, Sean

{WhO PUT ONIONS HERE BECAUSE

TEARS}

I am trying to stay strong, so, if you do ever come back, I can physically be here to greet you, love you, and laugh with you again

Not gonna lie, there were quite a few times where I've nearly broken my promise to you. I talked to Gretchen about it, because, actually, it's been about 3 months now, since I've made that promise to you

I will never stop loving you, Sean. You've impacted my life in the best way possible and I will never, ever forget you. I really hope I can see you again.

I love you 