Thread:Ham & Cheese Omen/@comment-28412230-20170509030140

This is mostly a note for myself, and for anyone who stalks my message wall (and know about my roleplay status on AJ).

''I've been considering this for a while now - ever since I've been on hiatus on around November or December, and I've been noticing I'm becoming more distant toward it. Throughout the years, this certain type of roleplay has been stretched to greater lengths and restricted to certain degrees in more ways than one. At first, it was normal, then anatomy, Latin, and finally to high school to college leveled words.''

''And to me, it's honestly crazy how it evolved. If it's making roleplayers in different varieties happier in the long run, then good for them; if it's comfortable for that person to roleplay in that certain style, good for them.''

''Ever since I've started roleplay in early 2013, I didn't know a damn thing about Warrior Cats. Never read a single book in the series, never knew a single character in there - I've only known about it in some animation videos about it. As I grew to have more knowledge about the series - it's terminology, it's lore, etc., it gave me a kick of motivation to roleplay actively at a ripe age of 12.''

''Once the years 2014 and 2015 rolled by, the rapid evolution in roleplay began to play: anatomy and Latin. Once I've seen some of the anatomy in some roleplays, I was honestly saying, "What the heck does that mean?" And I've done research. Too much research to the point it was almost stressful to learn about every bone, muscle, and ligament in a cat's/wolf's body. ''

''The reason I've done all of this? ''

I wanted to be like them.

''I wanted to be known for something in what I write, and for what my characters do. ''

''When the later months of 2015 came, I've start to become more distant to AJ roleplay. I was growing more and more, but gradually disinterested to it. And when roleplaying with advanced vocabulary was still a foreign concept to me, I was at a point I've stopped trying roleplaying. My young mind was biting more than it can chew, and I wasn't handling it any longer.''

I've starting having hiatus after hiatus.

''And then, Leah announced she was going to make Northern Stride, undoubtedly the most impactful group - at least in my opinion. When I revived my old OC from 2014 - Omen - I was estatic as ever when I was younger. I enjoyed every roleplay session, every conversation I've had with the people outside of roleplay, and every moment their OC's go through, including mine. ''

It was the most enjoyable thing I've been in.

''However, for every pack that's been made - and for every friend I've ever had that asked me to join a pack, clan, or any kind of group, I always declined. It's only because I was distancing myself from roleplaying once again. I'm on hiatus once again, and this one's been prolonged to approximately six months. This is mostly due to family issues and school. However, this time it seems to become more and more apparent to me as to what to do about my inactivity - and with the new restrictions with the AJ chat system with how it's only restricting to just adolescents.''

I'm quitting Animal Jam roleplay after four years.

''Nevaeh, if you ever get the chance to read this, I know that I've said that I wanted to join TME, I would've known how happy you were once I presumably gotten out of hiatus just for this pack, but... I'm starting to move on from this roleplay. And for that, I'm sorry for that, and I don't expect you to accept my apology - and that's fine.''

''Everyone else - Reina, Dani, Gretchen, and so many others, I just wanted to say that I really am sorry for doing this, and I hope that you all can understand that what I'm doing may be for the better for my well being, and for all of you. It's just... we all have to move on from something in some way, and this is the only way I know how, and it's honestly just as heartbreaking.''

I'm sorry. 