Thread:Untraditional AJ/@comment-29500005-20160825092019/@comment-27624785-20160825173626

Look, Jay..

When you quit.. I didn't know what to do. I was lost. Confused. Hurting. I honestly felt heartbroken. You left so suddenly, and the explanation wasn't enough for me. I don't know why you quit all of the sudden, but it was unexpected. I was, and am, going through terrible times, and then you quit. I honestly stopped getting on AJ. I haven't been on in a long time. I didn't even go on the internet once to check the wiki for a long time. Tbh I've been lost these past weeks. As if I had a bright candle light guiding me through the dark, but it was snuffed out. So suddenly, so abruptly.

Let me speak honestly here. What I thought we had was love, but obviously you had different intentions. You quit. After I started thinking you'd be there for me, you'd stay strong for me. You'd never leave me helpless, you'd never leave me. But.. You did. I thought this was love? Love that would mean not quitting a fucking children's game so we can stay in touch.

I'm not that shitty gullible little girl anymore. Love is simply an illusion. I thought for sure what we had was real. I believed it. I made myself believe it. But I was wrong. Dumbass children books had more love than we had. I thought I was that Cinderella, being led away by her Prince Charming. Boy, was I wrong. You left me, with a next to nothing explanation. I know you were going through hard times too, but honestly I've never considered suicide more than the past weeks.

The way you just came back. And asked for my affection, my feelings again. You asked if I still have feelings for you. It feels like a fucking joke. After everything, how you've made me feel. Suicidal. Depressed. Lost. Insecure. Now you expect me to come running back to you again? You've really messed up my feelings, and I don't know what else to think of you as.

The way your sister conveniently wanted to take your account after you decided to quit? Shouldn't I feel a little suspicious? From everything that's happened, I have the right to question this. Are you lying? If you were a damn girl this whole time, I'm going to be pissed. If you keep lying to me, I'll be even more pissed. I don't know why I'm asking this, because I probably don't have enough trust to believe you again.

Yeah, I'm glad you're back. We had great experiences in the past. It would be fun to hang out with you again, but I'm not sure if it will ever be the way it was. Just give me awhile to think, alright? I need to figure everything out.