Thread:SamdiTheNotSoGreat/@comment-29271015-20170304232055

Dani, I don't think there are enough words in this world to explain to you how sorry I am for my actions towards you, or lack there of, lately. I've been a real shit friend, and because I've been trying to focus on myself and make myself happy, I ended up completely destroying the trust with the one person I never wanted to do that to. I cried when I opened your snapchats today, when you said how I lost your trust, because that was a true eye opener to me, and I can't believe that I was stupid enough to continue ignoring you, even after those paragraphs you sent me on Kik. Speaking of Kik, the only reason that I'm not posting this on Kik is because I want you to look back on this whenever you need me and I'm not able to be there (for reasons other than my own selfish matters) because I want to prove to you that I can be that best friend that you need me to be, even though I haven't been lately... So can you just.. Hear me out here? I love you...

I've been told a lot of times lately IRL to "focus on myself and not worry about things going on with your internet friends" because most everyone who knows me IRL knows that I've been getting really stressed out over things relating to AJ or the Wiki or just friends in general. So that's what I did, I started distancing myself, but I didn't realize in the process that I was pushing away and losing my best friend. I was obviously too stupid and honestly too happy to even realize that, even with your messages and your pleas for my help. I can't even imagine how that must've felt for you, to watch your best friend completely ignore you in your times of need.. I'm so unbelievably sorry, Dani, and if there's anything I can do to make it up to you, I'll do it. This goes for any time I start to lose you, or you start to feel like you're losing me. I never thought, throughout this entire time, that I would lose you like this.. And I'd do anything to gain your trust back! I'm sorry I completely ignored you on Thursday and called with my friends.. I'm sorry I've been ignoring you lately, I'm sorry I haven't been help at all, I'm sorry I haven't been the friend you wanted me to be lately. If there weren't such a far distance between us, I would pick up and drive to you right now to make it up to you, but I can't do that, hell I don't even have my license yet, nor enough money to even get past Missouri... But as soon as I get enough money, and as soon as I'm able to fly by myself, you can bet that I'll pick up and immidiately fly out to Denver and find you...

Just think of all the memories we've shared, all of the good times we've had so far. 161 days on snapchat, we're so close to 200! You mean more to me than my precious Hamilton tickets (and that's a lot) and if I ever lost you, so help me it would be the end of my world.. I love you more than you could ever know, more than I myself even know! I'd never want to lose you, despite what you may think some times. It terrifies me, the simple thought of losing you. Honestly at this point, I think I'd just be repeating words I've already said, just look at my last thread to see how I really feel for you. But I'm scared for us, Dani. Because of my idiotic actions, I've ruined my trust with you, and I feel like you're slipping away from me. I'm scared, Dani. Please, just.. If there's anything I can do to make it up to you.. Just please let me know.. I'll do it, I'll do it all for you. Because I love you, you're not just a best friend, you're MY best friend,  and without you I'd be nothing. I don't know where I'd be without you. I love you so much, Dani...

I'm sorry... 