User blog:Obotrash/warning

this is very sad and depressing and me spilling sad stuff so heads up

Don't you just hate it when you feel like you amount to nothing? When you see others do thing better than you, or when you feel like your opinion won't be taken into consideration and earn you a lot of hate simply because boo hoo, this person is depressed and stuff so if I say something that might hurt their feelings I'm a heartless monster!! Like, just. Life will not provide you a cushion for everything and I'm sick and tired of having to keep my feelings and opinions hidden because other people would react badly and the situation will get impossibly frustrating and difficult. Or when you see people who are strong friends and are similar and do weird things together, and you just sit here with little true friends, or people you actually would give the world for. Or when you care about some the most but you know youre not their number one. Or when you look back on something you were in on and realise that your presence didn't matter at all? And you feel empty, and worthless, like nobody even cares anymore and you want to give up?

Or when people expect you to be selfless and care about others more than yourself, and when you try to focus on yourself instead of another you're considered selfish and arrogant?? Like, I spend enough time acting and being nice to others, so when I try to treat myself I'm instantly a petty piece of trash? And when you have to put up an act, a mask of sorts, to please the public because your true self isn't appealing enough for them and they only want what they want?