Talk:The Purified Kingdom/@comment-27379213-20160825195146

I have problems.

No matter how hard I try to do something I always fail. When people scream "You can do it!" I freak out and the pressure gets to me. And when I mess up, it stays on my conscious for weeks. There's a voice in the back of my head that screams ''You're not good enough. You'll never be good enough.'' And it hurts. My friends are probably just pity friends because I'm overweight, which automatically causes me to be an outcast. I thought my friends didn't care about my weight, but a new friend that I've made over the past few days, when we were arguing about who's dance moves were better (Don't ask), she said "You need excersize training." And I said that she did too, she replied, "No I don't, I'm skinny." And it hurt so badly because I thought my own friends saw me for who I was on the inside. Every time I hurt someone's feelings or mess up it sticks to me. I think everyone's watching when they see me be the failure I truly am. I think I have social anxiety disorder but I probably don't. Please don't get on me saying "Disorders aren't a good thing! Stop treating them like they're so cool and trying to be a special snowflake!" I just feel that way because I'm scared of messing up and ruining everything.

This boy I used to have a crush on, he's a total jerk by the way, he came over to my friend and tried to ask her something. When he was leaving I said "buh-bye" in a sarcastic way under my breath. He heard and asked "What did you say?" I said I didn't say anything but he knew I did. I tried to say I didn't but I ended up laughing and walking behind my friends. I felt bad so I offered him some of my candy later when I was giving my friends some (I'm on a diet so I refuse to let myself eat all my candy.) He said he didn't want any so I felt really bad. My friend and her crush like each other and I'm really happy for them, but it just brings me back to the thought that no one will ever love me since I'm just ugly and weird.

I need help.