User blog comment:Eyota/51017/@comment-31349320-20170511120436

Gee, that's a handful for you to be taking on. My ex had very VERY similar problems, so I know what it's like. From a more... "outside"(?) perspective, I can't say much, and I can't tell you things like "Oh, it'll get better!" or "You're fine! You got this!".. Mostly because after a while, you just kind of desensitize to those words, and it really sucks. They don't really help anything- not many things can.

All I can really say to hopefully help you is that you need to face your problems head first, and rely more on yourself than others. Most of the time, other people will either make it worse or throw sappy shit at you to the point to where it means nothing. That's not always the case, but it's the most likely outcome.

I can relate to this- aside the fact that my mom isn't an alcoholic. My parents always find something to argue about (yet my dad is the one who starts it), so I get that. Every day I have to pull my own strings so I don't have a giant panic attack in front of everyone bc of how horrifically terrifying the public is to me. It really sucks. I get bullied for my interests in return, which doesn't exactly help any.

Again, all I can tell you is to face yourself and your problems head on. I think that's how you can get through this. Strength.