Thread:D3ADS3NT/@comment-29271015-20161209001324

Hey Michelle, it's me ... I'm about to leave for my band concert shortly after I'm writing this, so please pardon any grammatical or spelling errors. I just wanted to write this on your message wall because, as we've discovered, PM's on the Chat are just too difficult. So here it is, I suppose ...

I'm still trying to figure out what happened on October 25th. Why you said what you said, why it all happened. But here's the thing ... I had two choices to make; Lie to you and hurt you, or tell the truth and hurt you. Now, I knew either option was going to hurt you in the end ... But I figured that you'd rather me be honest with you than lie to you and have you end up getting completely heartbroken farther on. But I guess not ... When you said what you did, it broke me down completely, and I still have bad memories of what all happened. I still lay awake at night, just wondering what all went wrong. We were so close, and goddamnit I miss that! I miss being able to tell you any and everything, because you were like a sister I never had. But you have no idea how much it means to me that you actually PMed me about a week ago and tried to repair things between us, and honestly I wish I could forgive you right now! But I'm still healing, I just ... What you said to me a week ago, it stuck with me actually, in the good way. Honestly this week has been hell for me, I'm not going to lie. And for the past couple of nights, I've been tossing and turning, just thinking about what I should do! I've slowly begun the process of forgiving but ... I just want to start to get closer to you again. Because I really did trust you, and I really did love you (just ... not in the way you wanted me too ..) and I miss that! I want to be able to make jokes with you, rant to you about people who are irritating me and just about life in general. I want you to be able to trust me, and I just want to start talking again ... I think you still have my Hangouts if you ever want to talk on there (I still have the app from my phone) and Message Wall is always a good option ... Please respond to me, I'm begging you actually.

Think we can just have a thread here and .. Well .. Reconcile with each other? Because I love you and I want to be friends with you again, I just don't know how ... 